The lies we choose to live with are the hardest ones to live with perhaps it is because we choose to live them.

If one does not create or implement a system of order a system of control will be choosen for you and you probably will be unhappy to say the least.

Order and Chaos R not so different in fact they are intertwined . Much.  Like Mobius’s strip or ribbon 8  on its side and the Orerebus principle “The snake eats it tail and all begins anew somewhat Norse mythology so Ragnorok or for that matter Aremegeddon from the Hebrew Harmageddon which a field.



Give the ones you love wings to fly, roots to come back and reasons to stay. 

~ Dalai Lama 

Hopefully they will reciprocate or at least love u back W.S

Wednesday the one of countless assaults on my ability to communicate my thoughts on my prescance and my nonpresence 


        Humanity is a quality that seems to be lost on most humans and if understood seems to be neglected and depression ensues due to either the what seems to be futility and inability of the individual to take action,failure in one attempts at change,or loss of will and drive or the missundertanding by others or disinformation and when a course of action is found it is too costly on of course one or more levels to most and apathy results thus making the individual “jaded” or buy love ci stock and barrel the bS and lies we are taught to buy into, ergo [Be happy ,don’t worry our bullshit is more palatable (lol) much of it is nonfactual bs.I know That I am speaking unfortunately a growing % of th population that does or should have both th intellectual and emotional IQ to comprehend this.Using an individual’s physical or mental illness or perceived weaknesses against them to me  this is tantamount to evil which neither easy to comprehend.It should be noted that for some blessings come with a curse and even the curse may be utilized if nesseseity dictates 

Like a house of cards illusions can be dispelled and truth sometimes is. Hard to bear 

Of course the best lies are told with a grain of truth yet truths surrounded by the best lies are at best a house of cards and one can at be at least inoculated hopefully if not Collapsed by remove key cards

This of course does not mean they are easily dispelled Yet exspierence this being a general observation and perception

Speaking personally I have felt and exspierenced this as well as mans seemingly unlimited capacity for treachery  and inefectual behavior as well as a contradictory nobility of spirit yet capacity for selflessness no matter how misguided. Many atrocities throughout history have been committed by both the ill willed and the well meaning.Chaos and order are really not so separate or black and white as is the case with good and evil .Many a fool has blundered into hell trying to do the “next right thing” and what is fucked up they usually take two or more heAthens with them.This I would suppose is self evidnent

Wednesday 9th of March

Humanity is lost on most humans as is humility and understood by even less and ensues due to inability of the individual or unwillingness of the individual and once understood depression occurs due to the futility or inability to take action this being due to either loss of will or the cost when exacted is expensive as well as a lack of drive.This is an untenable position at best